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the hardest part of goodbye is having to say it again everyday.

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the immortal otis redding

http://www.sendspace.com/file/nby094

the very best of otis redding

http://www.sendspace.com/file/5oaa93

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sprinklebell

 

he's my favorite ever. :)

your last kiss was something more like shrapnel...

                                                                              ...my heart is as cold as the clouds of your breath and
                                                                                     my words are as timed as the beating in my chest...

...heave, ho, thieves and beggars, never shall we die...

                      ...well, there's a method to my madness and if only i could find it, i could make you safe... 

                                                                                                                  ...i can see you awake anytime in my head...

...blow a kiss that leaves me gasping...

                                                         ...one day this will make you proud...

...no need for reminding...                                                                                ...you're still all that matters to me...

               ...the streets i know will never take me anywhere but here...

                                                                                                        ...soft and only, lost and lonely...just like heaven...

...you've been the only thing that's right in all i've done...

                                    ...baby all your mystery, like "you and me" is history, but somebody knows you now...

...i'll be so alone without you...                                                                           ...maybe you'll be lonesome too...

                        ...don't let me leave you anymore... 

                                                                                      ...too young to hold on, too old to just break free and run...

...i'll be there if you need someone, even if she isn't me...

                                                              ...i could lose my heart tonight if you don't turn and walk away...

                                ...you may say i'm a dreamer...

                                                                              ...i'll see you in my dreams...

...baby i'm not alright when you go...

                                                                                                                                                 ...i still love you anyway... 

                                                                            ...you were like a sunset to me...

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y/n?

 

wow. can it be may already?

it's been a long time since i updated.

i went to the my chemical romance show with sarah. literally the best night of my life so far ever. they're my favorite band ever and seeing them live is just like listening to the cd (they're that good. seriously.) and mama, mama live is the best thing ever.

see, this is why i love shows. there's a moment in the show. always at least one moment where you just know everyone in the room (aside from the parents, and there were some parents.) is jumping up and down, singing the words (and when we go, don't blame us, we let the fire just bathe us. you've made us oh so famous. we'll never let you go.) and you just know. every kid in that room is existing for the same thing in this moment. honestly it's a little like captain planet. you know how they all point their rings to the sky and and the rays all join and captain planet shows up? i was waiting for captain planet to show up. i am a dork. you can't tell me what i already know.

aaaaaaaanyways. they played the new cd (the black parade, which has made my life.) from first song to last song in order and with out stopping. and it was spectacular. ray toro is freaking sick when it comes to guitar. there was confetti during welcome to the black parade. i cried during cancer. i dare you not to cry. there was fire in mama and house of wolves and famous last words. famous last words gets me. i am telling you right now. that song is spectacular. then they took a small break and played some stuff from revenge. that show just flat out rocked.

and they're coming back in august.

in other news, my car is back and kindof working okay. school's out for the summer. i love Jesus and music and my friends and my church. and if this made no sense, it's what happens after you sleep for 12 hours and then can't sleep until 1am the next day. i apologize.

i love you all

bright eyes

just my luck to start writing a paper at 8:30 pm and not have the password to NClive. *rolls eyes* and the library closed at 8. so i can't get the password. :(

i guess i'll catch up on work instead and write the paper this weekend. hopefully he'll take it late.

my car has to go back to the shop tomorrow. i'm about done with it not working properly.

34 days until the concert :)



new dvd additions
pride and prejudice

accepted

i'm pretty much in love with accepted. justin long is hilarity.

spring break is officially over :( that makes for a very sad manda.

i dropped humanities today. i'm really heartbroken over that one. right. i am retaking it for the first part of the summer semester. at least now i'm down to 4 classes this semester instead of 5. 14hrs>17hrs totally.

my car has magically reappeared, yes, after 3.5 months it is sitting in my yard waiting for a license tag so that i can drive it w/o getting a ticket. amazing. i'm stoked if you can't tell. i do, however, need to find the front of my cd player. we took it off so no one would steal it while it was in the shop and now i'm not quite sure where it is. ooooops!

also, in this weeks news, i lost 1.8 in the past week, bringing my total to 7.4 for the past 2 weeks. hopefully i can lose 20 before oh, april 20th so i can have my red hair before the concert. i am soooooo psyched about the concert. ooh, am i excited.

over view of this week
+car is back
-school is back
+dropped humanities
+still going to the concert
-sanjaya is still in american idol. what? it's about time to lose that kid.
+cameron's sanjaya face is worth 257687387871 dollars, i swear.

new additions to the collection
put up or shut up by all time low
the bouncing souls by the bouncing souls
black holes and revelations by muse

sanjaya didn't get voted off last night? i mean. really?

sooo it's finally spring break and that would be awesome if i didn't have to work.

my grandma has announced that she's taking my sister, my mom and my aunt to the beach for 3 days during morgan's spring break. (as in, not me). but that's because i can't afford to miss any more classes. pooh on college. i mean it.

she is, however, giving me $100 cash cause i can't go. that excites me a whollle lot. possibly even more than getting to go to the beach and fight with my stupid sister the whole time.

i am excited that state beat drexel tonight. i really would adore it if the heels could lose out in the first or second round in the ncaa.

+totally going to the mcr show in april with sarah. completely stoked.
+bought the prestige (so my fave) and flyboys
-getting complaints from work about my state hoodie on saturday. whatever.
+sleeping in every day this week
-being late for work today
-running the new redlight on the way to work today
-having the guy who almost hit me send my mom an email since she put her website on her jeep that i'm driving
+not getting a ticket. not what i need right now, i promise.
+losing 5.6 lbs this week.

how do you tell a friend whose dad just died that he's being a jackass?

so i have these friends. two of my best friends. who happen to have dated for a while. who now do anything and everything to slash each the other's heart. welcome to being right in the middle.

zach's dad died yesterday and he asked me to call our friends to let them know (so he wouldn't have to do it). and i called carla. they dated for at least 1.5 years. she needed to know. she was actually going to attend the wake/funeral to show her support. (big of her).

zach didn't know i told her. her away msg. said "today has been terrible". he im'd her "at least your dad didn't die". but he didn't get that her day was terrible because of how awful his had been. now she won't come to either.

i mean she called me crying when she got the message i left for her. i just hate it.

he needs to apologize, but how do you tell him that?

you paint her heartless.
what if it's you that keeps making her that way?
maybe her day was terrible because she knew how terrible yours was.